Honestly, it’s been an interesting year for me. Ever since I’ve started working, I’ve met all sorts of people and been put to the test so many times. Time and time again, I’ve wondered if I made the right decision or said the right things. I’m only human, we all are.
I guess, being adults, we all have to learn to toughen up and distinguish between those who mean well and those who don’t. I sometimes find myself lost trying to read between the lines or guess hidden intentions. Friends or colleagues? It’s a tough thing to balance. But I’ve met some pretty awesome people, that’s for sure.
Slowly but surely, I’d like to think that I’ve grown and matured a little. Once work is over, it’s time to relax and just let the worry and stress wash away. I’ve discovered that it’s important for me to let go and take it one day at a time or I’ll get burnt out really quick. I’ll try not to take things too seriously and to heart so easily as I’ve realised that people say a lot of things in the heat of moment.
I’ve learned to hide my emotions and to not let emotions take over at work. Negativity is bad and I shouldn’t share it too much. I do tire of endless hours of putting on a mask and telling myself that, “it’s okay, it’s only during work.” I know I’m not perfect but I just wish that people would realise that I have feelings too. I simply have to be quiet in the face of unfairness and workplace politics. It’s just the way it is.
Adulthood is never simple. Not everyone has the same ideals and views in life as we do. So I’ll just end the day with a “Game Over. Try again tomorrow.”