Uncertainty

I don’t like dealing with uncertainties and what ifs. I second guess myself all the time. Even after making a resolve or a decision, I’m still not sure if it’s the right choice. The feeling comes in waves. I would be confident with my decision at first, however by the following week, this ball of worry knots in my chest and I tend to fret and frown over the issue even though there’s nothing I can do to assure myself.

It’s a weakness of mine, I admit. I’m not sure how to stop second-guessing myself. It’s hard to always be haunted by an issue that is practically non-existent because it’s not a real issue as of yet. Not sure if you get it or if I lost you there *nervous laughter*

My friend encourages me but it’s hard to believe her when I don’t even believe in myself. The feeling ebbs after awhile and I feel much better regarding the issue. I try to hold on to my optimism as long as I can because I don’t want to lose this battle with myself. I need to hold on. I have a list of issues and this barely scratches the surface. It’s hard sometimes and I feel like I should be better than this. Is there something wrong with me?

I can only try to cope with my anxiety and pray this all works out in the end!

*fingers crossed*

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