Sometimes, I don’t feel like going out. I don’t feel like speaking. I just want to be left alone. Maybe it’s just the way I look or the way I feel about myself that day. It’s strange.
But most times, I’m forced to leave the house because I have classes. Hello, student life. It’s hard. I try to smile and be positive but there are times where I just want the outside world to leave me alone. I can’t face anyone today. I just can’t.
I do find that putting my earphones on helps a lot. At least I don’t have to talk or interact with anyone. But then, some people don’t really get the hint. They either start talking to me and expecting me to respond, or they just talk at me. In case you missed it, earphones = DON’T TALK TO ME.
I just get these kind of days, once in awhile. Sometimes, I might be cranky because I am forced to interact with other human beings when I just don’t feel up to it. Well, at least my friends are used to me being like this on some days. And no, it’s not PMS. It infuriates me when someone alludes to that in relation to how I behave. No, I’m not defined by my menstrual cycle. Walk away if you wanna live, buddy.
I’m really grateful to everyone around me that still tolerates me when I’m like that. You guys are the best! ❤